Thats her.

Chapter 1 of CRBP : Farah Lee & Ally. Congrats Farah!

2012-01-23T10:02:00.005+08:00

Congratulations Puan Farah! Finally, one of our CrBp has officially married last Friday. Everyone were so excited and even had a last sleepover with unmarried Farah. Time flies super fast kan? haih sume besor doh.. Here some pictures of our squad pink with Pengantin.

Glowing kan the Bride? :)

the hantaran girls

the renjis girls la pulak
Selamat sudah!

Semoga kekal ke syurga :)

2012

2012-01-07T19:37:00.004+08:00

pada suatu malam sebelum tahun baru...

moe : resolution saya tahun ni bla bla etc etc. awak pulok ape?
me : first nok grad next year. secondly nok jd lebih baik n lebih lawa!
moe : awk kan paling cantik doh sayang. nok lawo gane lagi?

Well, memang tu pun azam tahun ni hehee. InshaAllah akan grad soon ;). HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!! may 2012 brings us more and more and more happiness. just because when we happy, everything will be in the right way inshaAllah.

er, 1 of crbp r getting married soon. rasa tua la pulak suddenly :D

Alive. Stil.

2011-12-29T22:22:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Hi. Hello. Memang berkarat dah that's her ni. Many things happened this year and I didnt have much time to update this blog. Anyways, 2011 will bid its farewell soon and I guess i've to write something on this to prove that i'm still alive. yes, still. So, here's the update:

My 6th semester, ie the classes officially ended last week and I'm currently 'enjoying' the final exam papers. er, tengah final exam sebenarnya.
This semester is so far the toughest, and busiest for me. I barely had time to even go back home and even relax. Fyi, I take extra subject, i.e LE4000 and plus my other 6 law core subjects make it 21hours for me.
Yes, I was still free on Friday(yes, 3 years in a row heh heh) but from Monday to Thursday, my schedule was full from 8@9am until 5pm. and that's excluding my other extra classes which prolonged my day until 7pm for few weeks.
I'm done with the presentation and submission for my term research paper (yeay). and yes, le4000 is pretty hard and will consume a lot of time doing research. I'm glad that I able to finish it this semester even though I'm alone. I figured it would be much harder to do it during 4th year likewise my other friends. For those who live in Klang Valley, they may always opt to do it during the short semester later. But for Terengganu-nians like me, its almost impossible I guess(at least for me).
This semester runs really fast and I can't believe its almost over. This is the most lame and boring semester for me and close friends at Iiu. We missed our meatballs day, and we didn't even have time for even a movie to watch together.Not even a movie, not even shop a single shirt..
People says we don't know what we're missing until we lost it. But the truth is, if we knew already what we'll miss, why would we still bother doing things to lose it?
Things happen for a reason. Yet maybe we can't seem to see it now, but sooner or later, the truth prevails, right? So much things happened so far, be it the good or the bad ones. Yet I'm thankful enough to those who never left us and always support whatever life leads us to. Thank you thank you may Allah returns all your favour soon inshaAllah.
I miss him. I really do. I bet all of us do. Perhaps its just not meant to be that way.
I'm good with my awesome boyfriend. We're still holding on, and strong. We hit our first anniversary on last 20.11.2011(such a nice date, I know). And yes, long distance relationship ain't easy as the saying goes. We hardly get to see each other and truthfully, its kinda hurt seeing other couples around me get to see each other every here and then, as opposite to us. We're both busy with our own things, and even didnt get to celebrate our anniversary on that beautiful date itself. Luckily, my hun is so baik and he compensated it on the next weekends. :).
This year, few close people around me were married, including my very own 4years roomate. Some of them even had a baby already. and I received wedding invitations already for next year, which is super near by the way. Not to mention they're around my age, ie 21-23 years old. Haih, the trend is changing. I still remember those high school days, dat whenever we ask someone when will they get married, most of them(even me), will spontaneously said "27-28 maybe. the earliest would be 25." So what happen? I know I'm not supposed to freak out in which I did not,but yes we're super young kan. However, I bet they must be ready enough to take a bigger step in their life and my doa will always be with them, so that they'll be blessed with happiness, always and forever.
About one half of my good friends already graduated. Some of them even started their own career. Okay, I'm pretty jealous of them about this. yeah, who does not want to graduate in a very young age kan? But what to do, I'm doing LLB and there's no way I can graduate before 4years of degree kan. Another year Iyllyana, inshaAllah. But the fact that everyone is moving on and busy with the final year project saddened me a bit. It is super hard to get everyone together nowadays. Different schedules, different commitments. Sigh I wish we'll never get older.
Okay, enough for today. Sorry for this long post. Time to get back studying and revising for final. Goodluck everyone, doakan saya :).

Budak Intern.

2011-08-04T22:45:00.007+08:00

Intern. Practical. Legal Attachment Programme. Erm, sama lah tu, kan? Finally baru buat post pasal LAP ni after a month habis. Fyi,budak2 AIKOL buat intern yang dipanggil LAP masa third year for 3months. Lama kan? Masa LAP, kitorang selalu jugak pergi Court and found out that actually kitorang lah budak LLB yang buat intern paling lama. UM 3weeks kat court and 3weeks dekat firm, UiTM/UUM/UKM/Unisza mostly 2nd year and buat around 3-4 weeks either dekat Court or firm. As for me, i did it at a firm, AAA (Asmadi Azmi & Assoc) dekat own hometown. Senang cerita, as accomodation, petrol, food, everything sponsored by parents wehee.

So, this is the library, aka tempat kerja kitorg. AAA ni firm yg medium sizenya, ada 2 level and handling conveyancing and litigation cases only. There are 6 lawyers and about 20 staffs altogether. Mula-mula, hanya Muhib and me yang buat intern kat situ. Alhamdulillah all the staffs and boss(es) semua baik2 and kitorang sangatlah comfortable and happy sepanjang intern kat sana.

Ni pulak time terjumpa budak2 LAP AIKOL yang lain dekat satu event, long-call dekat Court. Masa ni our boss ajak pergi High Court, tengok how Majlis Daftarai Peguamcara & Peguambela diadakan. Truthfully, seeing those kakaks yang "grad" from chambering time tu, buat hati rasa sedikit berkobar-kobar untuk menjadi seorang peguam(inshaAllah).

Next, this picture was taken masa kitorang ikut boss pergi Mahkamah Majistret Kemaman. Fyi, Kemaman ni agak jauh from Kuala Terengganu, about 2.5 hrs driving distance jugak lah. Masa ni AAA ada 3 intern students, tambah Shakirin from UM. Since Muhib and i already knew him before the attachment, so ok je tambah meriah dekat library tu. During the journey to Kemaman, kitorang dengar banyak jugak lah cerita from our Senior Lawyer pasal his experience as a lawyer for belasan tahun. Paling tak lupa pesanan En Sukeri "that being a practitioner is all about making money. But make sure u don't misuse your power".

And most of the time masa LAP ni kitorang ke mana-mana ber-empat lah. Since Tirah intern dekat firm yang just belakang our firm, so pergi mana2, even dengan staffs yang lain pun kitorang angkut Tirah sekali. Dari Majistret to High Court Malaya KT and even Syariah Court, semua kitorang pergi kacau. Kalau rasa nak poyo sikit, pakai black and white with blazer pergi Court, then mula lah ade yang tersalah anggap majistret or lawyer. Padahal semua tak pass pun
lagi ;D.

Dan ni pula kenangan with AAA staffs yang sangatlah baik, helpful dan sporting. Normally kitorang akan breakfast dekat pantry and keluar lunch sama-sama. Ke Yee Stall, ke McD, ke warung Mee Sup depan office, macam- macam lah. Tak rasa awkward sangat since diorang ni memang close to each other. Selalu je buat makan-makan sama-sama, pergi wedding staff sama-sama, memang rasa part of them for a while.

And the conclusion is.. report tak siap lagi! Hehehe. To AAA and semua yang membantu masa LAP apr-jul 2011, millions of thanks dan jangan lupakan kitorang ok! Honestly dah start rasa rindu zaman pergi office balik. Indeed experience is the best teacher. I learned a lot of things that can never be taught di uni. Thanks thanks and thanks.

Dah hampir 4bulan meningggalkan AIKOL, sudah makin rindu rasanya. Kawan-kawan AIKOL, jangan lupa register for new semester on 8Aug nanti ye. Selamat berpuasa. Rindunya nak puasa dan pergi bazar di Uia. Last year tak tahu pulak gonna be the last time puasa kat sana. Aikolians, Iyllyana misses you guys so much. See you in a month time. Ramadhan Mubarak :)

p/s : rindu. semoga selamat semuanya di Tanah Suci. Amin.

Happy Birthday, Love :)

2011-07-05T11:27:00.004+08:00

Last 25 June was moe's birthday. so we went for a small picnic to celebrate it. i ordered a cute green tortoise cake for him as he really loves tortoise. well, he was quite surprised afterall so the celebration wasnt that bad.

his birthday cake

officially 26 and 21 ;)

Well moe, happy birthday, love. thanks for your existence in my life. thanks for being such an awesome soulmate. i love you to bits, undoubtedly. and looking forward to more wonderful years to come, with you of course. ;)

OFFICIALLY 21 already :D

2011-06-22T16:42:00.006+08:00

yuhuu! 11 days back, i'm officially 21 years young(according to moe). so iyllyana, think, speak and act like an adult okay. ;).

so, for the celebration, my girlfriends made an attempt to surprise me (it was an unsuccessful attempt actually). but i really lovee the cake and of couse the deco. thanks to alia. only alia and meme came that night as everyone else was busy with classes, works and etc.

homemade by alia.

alia and meme :)

moe :)

and it was double fun as coincidentally, my family and moe were there too at that time. and as usual, i welcomed them with my sleeping attire hehe. well, thanks girlfriends :).

and as moe himself already prepared another cake for me, so we celebrated a day later.

*years actually. the staff spelled it wrong he sed.

thanks love.

Anyways, thanks for all the wishes, presents and love(s) received.you guys are awesome! well, for my 21st birthday, i wish for happiness, of course and blessing from Him. :))

Last Day.

2011-06-08T10:19:00.001+08:00

i feel OLD.

trying to be neutral.

2011-06-06T16:34:00.001+08:00

Results and LAP.

2011-05-08T16:11:00.001+08:00

Last semester's results came out last week. Alhamdulillah, I've passed all subjects tho there are some that didn't met my expectation. Anyways I'm super relieved that at least the nervous and cautious feelings had over. Tho we have about 4months++ more to go, I believe in checking my results right away. I can't stand the cautious and nervous feelings hehe.

And bout my attachment, thankfully everything goes very well. And I even went to the court this morning. Seeing those lawyers(esp young ones) acted in court inspired me. 8weeks more to go. Hopefully I'll be able to gain as much practical knowledge as I can during these 3months.

Well,doing attachment in terengganu, that about just 2mins driving distance from my house is awesome. No trafic jammed(unless public holidays), and I can even go back home during lunch time to have my shower hehe. The good thing is I get to be really close to my loved ones. My family, friends and him. Since everyone will be having common holidays until sept, I can't wait for my friends to come back here so that we can get together as what we used to do during long break like this.

And I'm tired of all the unnecessary things I've to go through everyday. Hopefully this will end soon. And to my beloved mama, Mrs Khairuazuara, Happy Mother's Day. We love you so much mama, you are the greatest mom ever and thank for always be there for us, no matter what. I promise I'll always be here with you, through thick and thin. And to all moms all around the world, Happy Mother's Day too! ;))
Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

failed.

2011-05-03T17:50:00.002+08:00

unimportant.

tawakkal.

2011-04-29T14:00:00.004+08:00

Ya Allah. You know the best for us. even if its bitter, if that's better, i'm all ready to accept Your fate.

..where were you when i needed you the most. ;(

judgmental.

2011-04-28T09:04:00.003+08:00

yes, judgmental. people tend to be like that, isn't it? anyways, this month, i've been going through a lot, and if i may say, this current stage is the most hardest one in my whole entire 21years of living. i don't know that i can be this strong, and thank you Allah, for giving me strength to go through all these with calm and peace.

and i always pray that may all these can finally find its end soon. easier said than done, isn't it? people may say this and that, but only those who matter know the best. alhamdulillah, Allah doesn't give me courage to hate anyone, doesn't matter what they've done to me. i can even hardly get mad, though sometimes i get angry for myself as certain things are really worth to get mad for.

and alhamdulillah, in this critical time, i've few ones that i can count on, who always there to support me. everything may end, well nothing is certain in this world. but that is not the end of the world. i believe no matter how hard life will be, the justice will always be given to those who always say and do the right thing. well, no matter how sad it would be, maybe now its the time to really put things into the right places. and i'll always pray for the best for everyone of us. amin.

flu.

2011-04-27T08:38:00.002+08:00

Facts : when you hold your tears, the tears will actually come out from your nose instead. so, you can make as it is indeed flu then.

now and then.

2011-04-24T09:16:00.003+08:00

heyya. currently in my k trengganu, doing and completing my attachment days here. alhamdulillah, everything has been well and fine so far. i got such a bunch of good and awesome people here, in the legal firm. though i'm all alone here(for now) doing attachment, ive never felt left out and what not.

well,final exams treated me or us, okay. all papers were hard, and i somehow hope that the carrymarks will help though. 3rd year is harder than the previous years,undoubtedly. thus, i'm hoping for some miracle from Allah to help me go through it and boost my cgpa.

and now i'm still trying to adjust my schedule, sleeping time and etc. here, the weekends would be friday and saturday. and we don't have Monday blues over here, Sunday blues instead. and well, the good thing about doing attachment at my very own hometown is that, i've family,friends and loved ones over here. so no matter how hard things are getting, i've them to turn to.

Aikolians082, allthebest for the internship. let's complete these 12weeks with awesome and wonderful experience that we'll never get in our own campus. and happy holidays! :)

Dear Self,

2011-03-29T01:58:00.003+08:00

you shouldn't be sad. that is so normal. now please go back to your islamic jurisprudence textbook.

careless or care-less?

2011-03-24T19:11:00.002+08:00

I'd rather opt for the first choice. well, somehow no one prefers to be an option.

and tadi was our last lecture for the semester. and my first paper will be next week. final already. oh dear time, what's with the rush? patiently wait for me please.

Merong Mahasuasa

2011-03-14T22:36:00.003+08:00

okey tajuk tak kene mengena langsung. i'm still in Merong Mahawangsa mode actually. it is a nice movie, successfully made me googled bout the Malaya History. so, Malaysians especially, do watch it ok? :)

btw, is anyone has the solution for bad eye bags? i'm currently having such a bad one. it has been 2 weeks. er,i've tried sleeping for 12hours straight but nothing changes. haiyoh, my face looks really, really bad now, with such eyebags. ye lah, my right eye is way sepet than my left one. nampak pelik, ok duhh

well, i'm currently in study(for final) mode. hopefully it'll remain for the remaining 2 weeks that i have before the final. and last but not least..er i miss him lah.

i woke up,..

2011-03-12T12:35:00.009+08:00

... it was 7am. second time i blinked, it was already 12pm. *sigh*

And today is already March the 12th. ehem, by just another month, perhaps i'm already busy packing things to be home for 5months hoho. this semester runs really fast, and i think i have major problems with time management this semester. third year, is hard.. seriously. and now i miss my first-trying to adapt-simple-uni-life and my second-awesome-relax-sophomore-year. yeah, what the lecturers and seniors are saying is indeed true. i hardly breath this semester. the workloads are.. crazy, if i may say.

and people, i'll be starting my final exam on this 31st March(or perhaps 2,3 days earlier for my decentralized tilawah2 paper) and inshaAllah until mid of April. by 18th April(or 17 for those like me who live in the East-Coast Peninsular), we'll be starting our legal attachment programme(LAP). oh yes, Aikol already announced our attachment venues, and as expected, i'll be doing it in a firm in K Trg, which is just 2mins driving distance from my house(how cool it is kan?) for 60 days. Hopefully everything will be just fine as 5 credit hours are allocated for this hoho.

and today is Saturday, and here i am, in my small cabin in Nusaibah Height, er iium of course. Mark the word Saturday, please. well, this is one of the difference of this semester compared to the rest of the semesters that i've been going through. this semester, i found out that i hardly have time to go back home, i mean Terengganu. and not just me, my friends are also the same. suddenly, everyone just grow up.. yes, i admit its not easy but we cant do anything, as we are not afford to do all the uni works just on weekdays, as we've been doing for few years lagi. and we kept consoling ourselves that everything's gonna be okay, we have five months to be home later. i miss the time when my parents used to think that i'm still a kiddo, where they'll try to visit me each and every weekend when i cant be home. but i understand, that time had passed, i'm no longer that iyllyana who used to cry whenever her hands were itching from just doing simple laundry hehe.

Last few weeks has been the toughest and hectic week in my uni life so far. too many tests and assignments, one after another until i don't know where to start from. Until my eyes just couldnt take it anymore, that i wore lenses like more than 15hours per day. then i have to wear spectacles, which i hate the most(i think i look weird in those). and i received numerous comments bout how i look with it :D.

and i hate it when i open facebook or twitter, i lost track of everything. the thing is, i want to keep in touch with everyone, i want to keep updated with what my precious friends (crbp babes and dearest family especially) are doing but i hate it when i don't know where to interrupt especially when i've not log in for sometime. thanks to bbm/whatsapp, atleast i can still in track with some, but i miss everyone. i don't know if the rest are feeling the same, but iyllyana misses u guys, okay :(

and perhaps the final-lonely-stressful mode already began. One simple petty thing already enough to simply make me started to sob. wallawey, i hate this side of me. maybe i'm just.. a girl. a girl is allowed to be that way, kan? i mean i cant pretend that i'm okay or i'm strong all the time. sometimes, i just have to let it go. sometimes, i just cant help but to feel hurt. sometimes, i just cant help from being the silly immature 21-year-old(going to be) iyllyana. sometimes, i just want to be noted that i'm important.

i think perhaps its time to just let life, destiny and fate decide. and i love this quotations,
"Never expect,never assume,never ask and never demand.Just let it be,because if it’s meant to be,it will happen the way u want things to be.".
We can’t fast-forward time to know if it’s worth it. So we trust our hearts and hope it turns out right.

oh final exam, yes all the best everyone. :)

p/s : condolences to Japan Tsunami victims.

tired.

2011-03-07T23:11:00.003+08:00

I'm tired of feeling bad. I'd rather feel nothing. It's better, it's easier. And I think my heart knows things my mind can't explain. The thing is, I'm frustrated. Frustrated to myself.

Perhaps enough is enough. And now, I miss me, I miss Iyllyana. Hopefully this is not a bad sign.

And I don't know why I keep playing this song over and over again. Such a nice song :)

i think im getting older.

2011-02-23T01:11:00.003+08:00

what am i doing right now?
sitting in front of a collection of notes and books, in my very own small cubicle,
studying..
here in campus of course.
i feel and i think, im getting older
not in number, of course, er im still 2o okay he-he
but i get tired easily lately
iyllyana used to be so active, she can still focus and be awake eventhough didnt sleep for more than 24 hours.
but, no more now.
haih, see im getting older
my mind, my eyes, my body need sleep in order to function fully now

perhaps because this sem, the workloads are crazy,
the due dates for assignments are crazier
and the midterms are the most craziest
not to forget the tutorials, lectures and all

due to all these busy-ness
im no longer up to date with the song charts, movies nor k-pop world
i wish i have more time
i wish there're more than 24hours per day
i wish i have more than 7days per week
i wish i can borrow mr doraemon's time machine
i wish..

i miss everyone, everything, and me.

7776000.

2011-02-20T23:53:00.000+08:00

today, it has been 7776000s
thanks for making me happy, each and every day
and for always being there whenever i really need you
i heart you, My Only Exception
always and forever inshaAllah :)

#

2011-02-03T15:35:00.002+08:00

sedih. tak sangka. nuffsaid.

:S

2011-01-30T23:13:00.000+08:00

alright :)

smiling

2011-01-18T13:48:00.002+08:00

heyhey midterm is just around the corner.
got quite a number of works and assignments to do lately, but i still managed to have some fun with iiu friends :). anyhow, i love this sem's environment. we're a bit poyo but still managed to at least catch up with the heavy workloads. yes, third year is heavier than the previous sems as we just take core courses and everything is new. but indeed interesting of course. but still sometimes i miss the feeling of going to the uni required course, having classes outside aikol and meeting new people.

and i'm currently in a very good mood as i just downloaded almost 50 new songs wehee ;)
life really needs good music[good is interpreted according to our very own personal preference of course)
to give some spice to life, to give it some flavors at least.
trust me, a good song can really boost up your mood for the day
especially if that certain song remind you of something
and among all, my personal favourite for today is :

have a nice day dear bloggers. :)

and its already 2011.. already?

2011-01-16T14:35:00.007+08:00

Hello hello hello. Hello 2011. wah, 2011! i've not posted even a single proper post for 2011 as yet. So here is a proper goodbye for 2010. Bye 2010, iyllyana will surely miss you a lot! Well, to summarize whatever that had happened to me in 2010, a lot of great things happened, as much as the not-that-great things hoho. Er, what can i say is i really grew a lot in 2010. both physically and mentally of course. For example, the first time ever in my life, the huge teen pimples attacked me! ive been so depressed over the few months right after my 2oth birthday to fight them. and i still remember how emo i became and i even lost my confidence to be in public. and yes, the syndrome at that time was really like a girl who just reaches her puberty hehe. and just imagine, that happened to me, who was just reached my 20 at that time. luckily, i've recovered hehe, both mentally and physically. the pimples just went away after few months of deep sufferings hehe. i spent quite a lot(especially from my own pocket money) to treat them. i tried both modern n traditional ways and also tested few products to suit my skin. after all, what i can summarize is, as we grow up, we really have to take care of our skin. no more baby's product(to face esp), no more "gamat" or johnson's lotion whenever pimple attacks me. finally i found a good (and quite cheap) products that suit my skin very well. ;)

Apart from that, i had a really great times with my friends too. Both my crbp-terengganu girlfriends and also great good friends from iiu. we celebrated each others' birthdays together, as well as going to vacations and all. "People say best friends are hard to find -- that's because the best ones are already mine." This quote really suits my friends and me. Haih, i've never stop from feeling so grateful and lucky for having them in my life. And guys and girls, hopefully, we'll remain this way forever okay :).

And my family? hoho, my siblings have grown a lot! Yaya, my only lil sis is already now in her Form 5, hopefully everything will be fine for her SPM this year. hoho, everytime im going back home and meet her, i always feel amazed as how fast she has grown up. Suddenly, she just became bigger( i mean taller in size) than me. So instead acting like a big sis, i rather act as her friend now. And my 2 naughty brothers? they had their "khatan" ceremony already at the end of last year so i'm expecting them to grow more fast now hoho. Ee will be having his UPSR this year so i guess our home will be very stress and quite this year with no vacation and all as we have 2 in the house that will be facing big national exams! and my lil hakimi, who is not that little anymore :(. actually he's one the tallest boy in his current class hehe. oh ami who now is a bit shy if we hug or kiss him in public, sighh i miss my little ami. and kak wa and abg jamil already have a son now, they named him as "adam". That my little one and only nephew(about 4months) is not that small anymore. i think now he is about 8kg already, so tembam and cute ;).

and also 2010 had changed my current status. hehe. i mean i've never imagined myself to involve in this kind of lovey-dovey thingy. i think it is indeed magical as how two hearts, from two different world can be connected like this. so mr, moe, i am indeed feel so grateful for your existence in my life. he is indeed my shooting star, because everything i've wish for, is everything he is. though it was a bit awkward at first, as ive been single for so long, but he made everything seems easier, and the road seems clearer for us. though nothing is certain in this world, my prayer is always that for us to end this with the right path inshaAllah.

and finally as regards to the new uni academic year. i thinks most of us already aware of the fact of the changes of the academic year. instead of starting the new semester in July, now' we'll start in September. Thus, right after this sem, i'll be having five months holidays. luckily, i'll be doing my intern for the first 3months. just imagine for other courses who dont have to do any intern, five months hols is like dot dot dot. so waste of time haish. due to this, our graduation will also be affected. instead of finishing my studies in nov 2012, now i'll finish in feb 2013(bcause the new sem will be sept-feb). *sigh*. feels like all my efforts to grad early is now a waste. i've skipped a grade during PTS and even did the one year foundation with the hope that i'll grad when i'm 22. but now, feb 2013 means 23. haiyoh, this is what they say, we plan but Allah decides. so the best thing to do is just be redha and just do my best for the next 3sem that i'll be going thru.

and for the new year resolution? truthfully i dont have one though i've tried very hard to figure out one. hmm, i just hope that this 2011 will make me bcme a better person, er from every angles and aspects :). i guess this is not even a resolution pun, just an honest hope from a 20 year old girl who wishes life would be kind or at least be fair to her. so 2011, iyllyana is welcoming u with a big heart and hope that you would bring greater things to her life this year. cheers ;)

p/s : pardon me with this very longg post. this will happen when u've not write for so long hihi ;o

Most of the times

2011-01-12T22:03:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, i wonder that if to you, everything is just a routine
And for me, it is absolutely not, not so far at least.

[since everyone macam tengah demam Ana Raffali je sekarang]

Redha.

2010-12-16T15:35:00.002+08:00

mama selalu kata,
"kita hanya merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan"

this is super, super, super true, ma.
dua, tiga hari ni asyik dapat news yg kurang menyenangkan.
sabar ye, cik iyllyana.

be positive :)

2010-12-15T14:21:00.005+08:00

Optimism means expecting the best, but confidence means knowing how to handle the worst. and i wanna be both.

Always think positive is the best thing to do afterall
that includes i can, i can and i can

Therefore, Yes, i can do this !
:)

p/s : "one who seeks equity must do equity". yeah, this is so true.

Dear my biggest fears

2010-12-15T08:25:00.002+08:00

.. please go away. Thats because..

Hello third year.

2010-12-13T22:35:00.004+08:00

Mode : Back to reality ;)

The new sem officially started today. and my first class for this sem went well. i think i've made a right decision by choosing Revenue Law as my elective. and i like this subject. ;). hello third year. surprisingly, all the classes this sem started on time (normally there arent much classes that will start on the very first day). well, perhaps this is one of the differences being in sophomore years if i compare with my first year. and the best part of course gather back with my iiu girlfriends and classmates after quite a long time. well, everyone is still in excited mode kan this week :).

Hmm, third year already, huh. time flies really fast. it seems like i just finished my tiring ta'ruf week yesterday. *sigh*. and iyllyana is still struggling thinking what she's gonna do after graduating. up until now, i still dont have a clear picture of what i'm gonna do next. to start working, chambering or perhaps continue master studies? and if i choose to work, what area should i start? i know with a law degree, its not that im bound to only work in legal field but still, i'm not sure if it'll be worth to leave this field after struggling reading laws for four years(five if i include my one year foundation). haih, to decide in something which may change your whole life is hard, really hard. and since i'll be doing my legal attachment in a legal firm next summer, so perhaps by then i've already made up my mind.

And i've completed my mission though i just arrived here yesterday. the mission was to watch the new harry potter and rapunzel. well, i like them both. :). and i even got myself a new sophie kinsella's book. i really need to do some shopping, later perhaps as im still busy with classes and all the registration thing. and as usual, after one month being home, the homesick-ness (ngade-ngade disease) will follow after that. luckily, i receive phone calls from mama often, though sometimes i'll feel a bit jealous when gt to know that they go to nice places without me. but yes, i have to be realistic and rational. iyllyana, you're already 20 okay. stop being such a crybaby and ngade-ngade. i miss terengganu, i miss my gfs a lot and ofcourse him. i think thats all for now. good night peeps and welcome back dear iiu-ans ;)

p/s : ive started to dislike the new facebook profile. how about you?

result and reality.

2010-12-06T22:22:00.003+08:00

i've checked mine at exactly 4pm tadi. alhamdulillah.. so, hello third year. a bit nervous actually to enter into the third year. and plus, i feel old. senior~. hehe. hopefully everything will be fine for me.

today is already 6th dec. time flies so fast. my almost one month holidays is almost over already. so, currently, iyllyana is preparing mentally and physically to back to reality. goodbye home, goodbye my terengganu, goodbye family tersayang, goodbye gfs and goodbye moe. i'll be missing these badly :(. and welcome third year, welcome aikol, welcome nusaibah, welcome uni friends, welcome books and welcome kuala lumpur. reality awaits, face it iyllyana.

p/s : Happy New Year to all Muslims :)

i love my awesome gfs

2010-12-05T10:54:00.004+08:00

Yes, i really do. i wish everyone was here yesterday, as we were having such a fun picnic, er monsoon picnic as it was raining nonstop over here in Ktrg. whenever i think about us, its amazing and incredible as how tough our friendship is. CrBp gfs, of course. most of Crs came from Skss1 and most of Bps came from Skss2. then we met during our high school days, mainly at Smkss and since then, they've bcme my second family. We share good and bad times together, and it is always fun whenever we are together, even by only meeting at ony of our house(normally my house). Haih, i love my awesome gfs, i really doooo ;)

You.

2010-12-02T09:26:00.001+08:00

You know when you have found your prince because you not only have a smile on your face but in your heart as well. :)

thank you.

2010-11-29T08:36:00.002+08:00

thanks for finally come back. :)

reality.

2010-11-27T21:40:00.007+08:00

Yes, reality. suddenly, tergerak hati untuk browse myiium after hampir 2weeks hidup dalam fantasy. fantasy here means "kureng" kesedaran iyllyana ini masih seorang student. Firstly.. okay, iiu-ans, the results will come out on the 5th. diulangi, on the 5th. lebih kurang seminggu dari sekarang. oh, tanak check boleh? (selalu kate macam ni tapi everytime result keluar mesti tepat2 5pm terpacak depan pc, berebut dengan thousands of other iiu-ans meng-check result). tapi final that day memang lah.. sigh.

Secondly, 13/12/2010- the classes will be commenced. new semester, new classes, new lecturers and most important thing is, welcome to the 3rd year llb. woah, means that ive been in this law course for exactly 3years already(plus my 1year foundation of course). time passed so quickly. dush dush dush dangg.. welcome to the third year, iyllyana. more challenges, more subjects, more tests perhaps. as usual, i've checked the holidays in advance too, hmm seems like most of the public hols nex sem will be on sat. so, no extra holidays? haih.. so basically i'll be going back to iiu before 13th dec, which means i have less than 2weeks to enjoy my short semester break - the only time i can do whatever i want to without having to think about my studies. haih, i want extra hols pls..

My holidays so far has been great. being surrounded by my beloved ones, theres nothing more i could ask for kan. my eid also has been the most awesome one ive ever celebrated. i love the new me, so far though sometimes i hate myself for acting "weird", i.e. started to overthink something that is actually nothing. and though i dont really want to admit, ive changed and infact, ive surprised everyone by doing something that ive never done before. i agree, life need changes though i really wanna be the original iyllyana to everyone that know me before ive "transformed". trust me, gfs and friends, so much so i want u guys to love me the same as before, i'll try my very best to be the exactly the same iyllyana, i promise.

And.. Harry Potter! as a big fan of Harry Potter, i really want to watch the new harry potter and the deathly hallows(though ive read some negative reviews bout this part one). *sigh*. now i wish ktrg has its own cinema over here hehe. oh yes, some of my UiTM gfs will be graduating soon. congrats ye, my dear gfs (fifah, aima, tun, anis, etc). im so happy and proud of u guys :)
and i think enough craps for tonight. goodnight peeps :)

1 day, 3 autumns

2010-11-27T17:19:00.000+08:00

imy, moe.

...

2010-11-26T07:45:00.002+08:00

...
i wish u know how much i hate myself for acting like that
and i've started to miss the old me..

.

2010-11-25T20:08:00.001+08:00

Part time nurse

2010-11-25T09:50:00.003+08:00

yes, i am.
ee and ami, stop being so manja.
penat, tahu? :)

Today was a fairytale.

2010-11-24T14:33:00.001+08:00

yes, it was. :)
and i'll be missing you..

yes,

2010-11-21T07:54:00.002+08:00

"To love someone is nothing, to be loved by someone is something, to love someone who loves you is everything "

thanks for everything
i love you :)

this is not good.

2010-11-14T16:46:00.003+08:00

just now, something popped up in the screen
strangely, i dont like that
haiyoh this is not good, iyllyana

p/s : cant wait to be home, seriously

Today..

2010-11-06T19:15:00.003+08:00

...I caught myself smiling for no reason... then I realized I was thinking about you.

"Someday your prince charming will come. Mine just took a wrong turn, got lost, and is too stubborn to ask for directions."

Remember this quote? Perhaps mine already started to ask for directions and halfway through his journey to find me. Perhaps perhaps perhaps..

BACK TO REALITY

2010-11-05T16:41:00.003+08:00

i think i have the same title for post everytime i have final exam or after my semester break ends. hehe. BACK TO REALITY. this sentence means so much to me as seriously, i have to. its not that ive not been living in reality for the past few days but now, the exams look more real and of course, scarier hehe. ive got 4 more papers and these 4papers je consist of total 12credit hours kan. so goodbye facebook, twitter, formspring and also blogspot. see you in 10days.

weird.

2010-11-04T07:37:00.005+08:00

Omg, its already 4th of nov. time flies so fast, seriously. and i just woke up around one hour ago with the mixed-weird feelings of missing everyone. and of course that includes you :).
Perhaps thats bcause today is the last day(im going back, berperang with finals tomorrow). nak sambung tidur pun rasa sayang and feel like wanna do everything today. nanti 2weeks then baru boleh cuti (and i know these 2weeks gonna be super busy, hectic lagi stressful for me). haiyoh

Anyway, i love semalam. hanging out with bestfriends after some time tak jumpe was super fun. and HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALIAA ;)

me with the birthday cake. sorry alia, xsempat tempah kek comey2 sbb awak balik short notice sgt hehe.

birthday girl and me

crbp yang ade.

@zies. thanks to mr/mrs/ms unknown yang belanja kami.

its tuesday and im homee ;)

2010-11-02T14:34:00.006+08:00

Currently at home and it feels really weird (and a bit sad) to be home on weekdays, seriously. for example, woke up and then realise no one was here at home, except for bibik and me.*sigh*. er, at least it's better than waking up alone in my small cabin in mahallah nusaibah, kot.. alhamdulillah, pls be thankful, nana.

otherwise, its so nice having dinner with whole family around like semalam, or listening to my lil sibs' complains bout their school life and also friends. thats the beauty of the fact of jarang balik kot, then they'll appreciate me more(hehe). haih, they're getting bigger each time i'm going home and what i can do is just.. smile. hehe. for example, lately ami dah start segan and malu whenever i hug or kiss him in public, sejak bila ni? ami, you're just seven ok. can you not grow up as i'll miss our manja-gedik-+"muwe" adik..

And today, i managed to stalk some of friends' facebook. i noticed there's quite a number of my friends that started to wear hijab recently. alhamdulillah, this is so cool. my dear friends, ive been through the very same process few years back and i knew its hard. do have faith in yourself and of course, Him. insyaAllah everythings gonna be fine :). lagipun, who says girls in hijabs are not cool kan *wink*

something is happening, lately. though i dont really know what it is( or i simply dont want to admit). perhaps, this is what ppl says, the best things happen when you least expect it. :)

im done with 2 papers for my finals and yet 4 papers is waiting. allthebest, iyllyana. :).

stress

2010-10-31T23:12:00.004+08:00

iyllyana, jangan stress. jangan stress. jangan stress
see, jerawat dah keluar balik.
haih, paper tadi..
the worst law paper i've ever done
4 credit hours kot..
*sigh*

.. semakin tenang.
sebab ade Dia di atas.
tempat saya mengadu dan Dia tak pernah menghampakan
dan tak sabar mau pulang besok :)

oh i heart you,,

2010-10-25T12:59:00.001+08:00

MAMA!
you are awesome!

after bersedih seketika,
mama said, " beli tiket balik"
sudah confirm pulang yg gap 6hari. *grinning*

final exam. sigh

2010-10-25T08:18:00.003+08:00

http://www.flickr.com/kupih

Finally, the final exam schedule is out. IIU's, you may check yours from now on ok.

mine : *nok nangih rase*

Tilawah AQ - 28/10
L O Succession - 31/10
Methods OD- 06/11
Criminal L 2 - 09/11
Family 2 - L 12/11
Constitutional L 2 - 15/11
Debate - done.

No changes from the prelim schedule at all. will only merdeka 2 hari before eidadha. :(
too much of gaps *can feel the loneliness from now*
haiyoh. stop sighing, iyllyana.

currently listening to : Darren Hayes - I Miss You.

2010-10-24T11:15:00.001+08:00

thats her is backkk.

2010-10-23T18:46:00.003+08:00

Hi ppl. thats her was having a break sekejap. and now, she's back and miss the blog life. hehe.

Anyways, this month is not-that-good month for me. and Mr Tau got injured, ehem again in IIU. this time in Nusaibah. it was a hit and run accident. anyways, everything has been settled and thanks to the girl who did it, as she willing to pay every cost that ive to pay to treat Mr. Tau. and now, Mr Tau dah ok. :). i wonder why if there's any big dugaan that test me whenever im here, its always as regards to Mr. Tau. perhaps, thats because he's the most dearest and closest to me here, as only he, willing to serve me thru thick and thin, and always there for me in my happiest and also saddest(or sadis :P) days. Haih. Luckily, i managed to go back home(trg) last week, a day after the accident. at least, 70% of my soul has recharged. i know such an accident maybe just a minor issue to anyone else, but at least for me, it was a hugee thing as i was alone here, and it was my first time, that made me got panicked and bcme so down.

My final exams will be started on this weds/thurs. i've done with all the classes for ths sem except constitutional 2(even will be having consti test on this tues). we've also settled with all the pre reg thing(mahallah and classes). i've had a great weekends, as my parents were here. i've been to pwtc few times in these past few days that i had a great time cuci mata seeing those malay guys wearing baju melayu with songket and all. i think malay guys look the most handsome when they're wearing baju melayu. hehe

Afterall, final is coming soon, the semester has come to its end. everyone is busy handling all those assignments and presentations and tests. if other universities have study week before the finals, for us, we just have study "days" as only 2 days is allocated for us to do the revision. haiyoh. all the best everyone, see you guys in the exam hall. :)

haisy.

2010-10-12T01:50:00.002+08:00

am trying hard to focus
everything is not going well, starting from the stomach, and then the cramp.
haiyoh,
i really need to study.
and as usual, tomorrow's gonna be a longg day.
sighh
just another few more topics for tonite. please lah nana.

McD and Criminal 2.

2010-10-11T12:09:00.002+08:00

one fine Monday morning..

McD Drive Thru

Criminal 2 Notes.

all the best, iyllyana.

indeed, you are

2010-10-10T22:40:00.002+08:00

my only exception.

..i like the vc ;)

101010 updates.

2010-10-10T15:47:00.007+08:00

hello ppl. its been a while since my last post kan (excluding 101010). my life has been fair to me so far. there're ups and downs, as usual. tests, assignments, presentations- normal "activities" for a student like me. i've done with all the presentations and assignments for this sem, alhamdulillah. for the second tests, i've still gt 3 papers - criminal 2(this weds), succession(next tues) and constitution2 which i believe will be held somewhere around next week. hope everything's gonna be okay.

pre-reg shall be held next week, hm for next semester of course. i'm still have doubt as for the elective subject. next semester gonna be our 3rd year. third-year. sounds scary, kan? my seniors keep telling me that the lecturers will treat us differently when we're already in the 3rd year. they'll treat you more like an adult. you have to do everything on your own. as for now, i'm up for commercial law for my elective. i dont know why, but i have a strong feeling that this subject is gonna be fun. and i've not completing the LAP form as yet, which i have to submit by the end of this month. i'm gonna do the practical thing in a firm in ktrg, as i dont want to miss the chance of being home for 3months. hehe.

finals. yes, final exams are coming soon. too soon. i dont know if its just me, but i think this semester runs really fast. i just couldnt believe that we'll be having the final exams in just another 2 weeks. *sigh*. iyllyana, wake up please. you know yourself, you dont wanna screw yourself during final kan. tapi sangat geram dengan all the gaps in between my papers. too much of gaps. and now i wish my home is just nearby, so that i can always go back during the gaps. its gonna be a lonely final week,as always. and again as always, our last paper is gonna be on the very last day of the exam week, which is just 2days before Eiduladha. haiyoh.

right now, i'm in my cabin, listening to my fav playlist, infront of my pink laptop(facebook-ing, of course), and holding my criminal 2 notes. this weekends was a great one. i was having so much fun with my sister and also with my parents. er, i dont know again if its just me. have you guys have this feeling of "sayu-ness" *mind me with my language.hehe* whenever your parents are leaving you(or vice versa). i've had, and still having it. before this, my eyes used to be a lil bit "watery" when it comes to salam and hug my parents before i'm/they're leaving. but , now i can really control it, hm at least until they couldnt see me anymore. as i dont want them to get worried of me. hmm, parents and family.. are really "something" irreplaceable, right? no matter what they do to us, no matter how they are, the love is always there. i love my parents. mama,papa,really cant wait to see you guys again next week.

oh yes, i'm going home next weekends. tak sabor nye. Allah knows how much i miss the feeling to just be home. too much things happened currently. but its nice to note and appreciate that, how the friendship will become stronger when we went through all the challenge and test together. Hey my dear friends over here, iiu-best friends, you guys know that i love korang kan. we're all in this together. no matter how hard it comes, as long as we're together, i think i can handle all this. :). and i really miss my CRBP girlfriends. though we couldnt meet often or keep in touch all the time, we're never far at heart kan. everyone is currently busy with all the college things and i wonder when we all can gather again, all of us...

i should stop here as the post is getting longer. wishing all of you the best in everything you're doing. bye-bye :)

p/s : im so in love with today's date. lawaa sangat. patot lah banyak gile wedding today.

101010

2010-10-10T10:41:00.003+08:00

10.10.10
such a very nice date, kan?

random thoughts.

2010-09-29T00:32:00.007+08:00

have this ever happened to you?
being alone at late night, and suddenly you started feeling sad without any reason.
haiyoh, i hate this feeling.
though life is unfair to you,iyllyana. you have to bear with it. this is just the beginning.

.. sometimes its better to not know than knowing something that will just continuously going to hurt you.

What happened during Raya.

2010-09-22T00:59:00.006+08:00

I had such a fun raya this year, celebrating it with my family and friends. Much more, most of my gfs, er the CrBp were there during eid, even those who study abroad. We went to a number of open houses almost everyday, from day 3 to day 8 of Syawal. Besides, we even celebrated Syazana's, Sfera's and Ned's birthdays. Oh not to forget, during Ramadhan, we did a small surprise birthday party to Iffat.

we celebrated iffat's birthday at TGIF, the curve. we had to change the plan few times, as we afraid that she might find out the plan. luckily, she was really surprised. the tgif staffs forced her to sing a song before she could blow the candles. she then sang the wonder girl's "nobody" song. that was really cute of u, my dear. happy birthday! ;)

then, on the 2nd of syawal, we celebrated syazana&safirah's birthdays. we tried our best but unfortunately syazana found out regarding the surprise birthday cake earlier. but at least, safirah was surprised as she thought we're there only to make a surprise party for syazana. happy birthday to both of you ya ;)

and on the 8th of syawal, with the help of ned's mother, we celebrated ned's birthday. she was really surprised and even shed tears. happy birthday my dear ned!

part of CrBp. i really like this picture. *kunun2 nak tiru SNSD la ni*. hahaha
omg, i'm gonna miss my girls so much. we had soo much fun and er thousands of pictures. :P

my raya was great except for the part when people keep asking whether i am still single and why. the answer is i dont know. Soalan wajib every year, boyfriend and kahwin. Its not wrong for me, not to have a boyf, isnt it? im just 20 lah. i have more than enough time to find one,right? er, they to find me. i dont think im gonna try to find one. most probably i'll just gonna wait until my prince charming finds me. im really bad at flirting, and dont have enough courage to start a conversation with a stranger. nvm, im sure He already chose someone for me. so dear mama and aunties, stop worrying, okay.

and right now, im already back in iiu. the good news is ive already done with all the midterms. therefore, i'm quite free right now, as compared to the month of Ramadhan. I received several open house invitations for this coming weekends from my iiu friends. therefore, i guess this weekends gonna be a fun one. till then,have a fun syawal ppl. :)

RAYA

2010-09-13T02:12:00.002+08:00

1 syawal.

2 syawal, majlis makan2 @home

3 syawal. before beraya to 14 open houses.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir & Batin.
;))

Nasib MR. TAU

2010-07-29T23:45:00.005+08:00

location : AIKOL student parking lot
date/time : 29-07-2010/between 10am to 1pm

Now, Mr. TAU looked soo not cool. And I am so sad for him. Will replace the new fog lights later but yes, I'm in fear that perhaps later on the new one will get stolen again. I hope what happened to me will not happen again to anyone else.

2.286 : "God does not burden any human being with more than he is well able to bear". Alhamdulillah, Allah gives me one test after another because He knows that I am able to bear it. InsyaAllah.

mentally unstable. haha

2010-07-25T08:59:00.004+08:00

hello bloggers. lama jugak tak update. currently, my student busy life kembali lagi. what i did these past few weeks? hmm, balik uia, change room(and i miss my prev room so much), classes pun dah start and now kembali ke rumah. er, dan bakal ke gombak balik in another few hours. first week, new sem, officially i'm a second year, second semester student. life sama je. unexpectedly every subject, first class dah start lecture. dah tak ada ta'ruf macam dulu-dulu. maybe because semua orang dah kenal masing- masing. and for the new format lecture? we have less classes, tapi 2hours back to back lecture memang sangat memenatkan. especially on weds, in which i have classes from 8am to 7.30 pm. tapi hari lain sangat free pulak. hoho. tak apa lah, since everyone pun macam ni. so, there's nothing much to complain.

health? alhamdulillah, currently physically sangat healthy, just mentally ade plus minus stress and depressed here and there. like last week,was not very well, suffered bad sore throat and cough for the whole week. maybe effect kemas barang, er debu and etc. sangat tidak cool apabila cuba untuk tidak batuk, eventhough tekak sangat gatal-gatal when dalam lecture. sangat tidak cool, okay. tapi alhamdulillah,now dah okay. just kahak sikit here and there. at least tak batu sana sini, okay lah kan? mentally not okay? why? i guess it has something to do with hormone changes kot. mood KO and OK tak kira masa. jerawat tumbuh, besar and sakit and ada banyak. not just one mcm biasa. eventhough maybe semua orang pernah rasa, but its a first time to me. rasa hilang keyakinan diri, sumpah takde confident langsung nak meet with people. dah letih nak jawab when orang tanya, "eh kenapa nampak lain ni?". tried to act cool, tapi sebenarnya sangat depressed. tiba-tiba jadi "cengeng", kalah budak darjah satu. haih. balik last fri, dah buat facial. now semua dah kecut, tapi kesan merah facial still ada. the beautician said the marks will be there within 2-7days. sabar iyllyana. it'll be gone soon, kan?

last but not least, for anyone yang terkena tempias my k.o. mood, thousand of apologies okay. this is not my real self. am trying to retrieve back the original iyllyana. these last few hours in ktrg? ape nak buat ye? nak tidur sayang. hm, terengganu, i'm gonna miss you. jumpa masa ramadhan nanti ye, insyaAllah.

DEPRESSED

2010-07-23T23:48:00.000+08:00

yes, i am.
:((((((((((

hey iiu people

2010-07-01T00:06:00.002+08:00

I miss aikol, roomates, mates, classmates, mahallah mates, lecturers, and everyone over there. Lama nya tak jumpa. Although dapat rasakan agak susah nak tune everything to study mode, tapi if nak seribu daya kan. Cuti dah nak habis ni. Sama-samalah kita berusaha nak tune holiday mode to study mode ya. See you guys in 2 weeks time :))

**CRBPs, the bbq was super fun. Thanks everyone for the good and delicious foodddd. Have a safe trip to BPs, and to Crs, lets enjoy the few last days we have over here. :)

Life would be perfect if bad times had a fast forward button and good times had a pause button.

2010-06-29T23:08:00.007+08:00

... isn't it?
Oh ho oh ho. Time really do flies fast. Rasa macam baru semalam post pasal lagi sebulan tinggal cuti. Tup tup tup, another 2 weeks lagi, and i'll be going back to the real world. Back to reality,indeed. The new semester will be started on the 12th July. Lucky me, as compared to most of my friends here, their classes will be started on the 5th, one week earlier than mine. Sighh. I'm gonna miss you guys muchoo.

I've been enjoying my 3months holidays with my beloved family and friends. And of course, my holidays would be better if all my friends were here. I mean, in most events we've done, not all crbp were there. Allah knows how I wish they were here, celebrating and having fun with us.

Dear Iyllyana, time to go back to reality,dear. 3months of holidays,yearly is like my dream world. World full of happiness, being surrounded by my love ones with no stress neither pressure of studying. Whenever I'm in uni, its not that im not having fun or what. Just,,that is a different kind of scenario as I still have to deal with studies, tests, assignments and all. My close friends over there are all fun people too. We do hang out and going out together too at times. But, I'll be quite lonely as normally, during the weekends, most of them will be going home. And most of the time, we'll be busy dealing with studies.

To you, you, you, you, and you, thanks for meriahkan cuti saya. I'll never ever forget this holidays. Sedihnya dah nak habis..

**semua gara-gara BETT yang post emo emo dekat facebook. kan dah lekat. current mood : emo. :P

currently listening to :

currently listening to

2010-06-27T01:35:00.002+08:00

one of my all the time fav songs. :)

BABYFACE - Wish That I Could Tell You

I wish that I could tell you
How I really feel
I wish you could believe my love for you is real
All I know is, I ain't much without you
You really are the better part of me, yes

Chorus:
No matter how it goes (no matter how it goes)
Girl I want you to know
You're my moon, river, my dreammaker
My soulmate, you're like gold
A beautiful
beautiful
oooh baby

Wish that I could change the way things might have been
I wish we could start over and fall in love again
All I know is I wont ever doubt you
I wanna live (wanna live) inside your heart again

ohhh

Chorus:
No matter how it goes (no matter how it goes)
Girl I want you to know
You're my moon, river, my dreammaker
My soulmate, you're like gold
A beautiful
beautiful
oooh baby


ohhh
You're my moon, river, my dreammaker
my soulmate, you're like gold
ohhhh
You're my moon, river, my dreammaker
my soulmate, you're like gold
a beautiful (oh yeah)

I wish that I could tell you how I really feel.

jeragat oh jerawat.

2010-06-27T00:40:00.003+08:00

gambar takde kena mengena dengan post. ni apa saya buat ketika bosan :P

Hello people. Okey, hari ni nak membebel sikit. Saya tengah tensi lagi tension. Sejak masuk angka 2 ni, jerawat eh jeragat, err tak tahu lah apa asyik tumbuh je kat muka. Maybe bukan masalah besar for sesetengah orang tapi bagi saya, err masalah besar. Sebab selama ni jarang ada masalah dekat muka. If keluar jerawat sebiji dua sebab masalah orang perempuan pun, dua tiga hari lepas tu mesti hilang. Tapi kali ni.. dah lah banyak, then tak hilang-hilang. Dan semua ni buat my level of confidence dropped terus. Dari nak keluar, to cakap dengan orang, terasa macam semua orang pandang jerawat tu (walaupun tak). Hadei. Dah try pakai lotion, bedak sejuk pun dah, gamat pun dah sapu, still tak hilang. Just mengecil sikit sikit. Nak pakai ubat jerawat takut nanti tinggal parut pulak. Sigh. Susah jugak bila kulit matured lambat ni. Zaman remaja(er waktu sekolah), bila semua orang pun tumbuh jerawat, diorang tanak keluar kat muka saya. Sekarang, bila semua orang dah takde jerawat, diorang nak pulak menempek di muka ni. Aiseh. So, any solution nak settlekan masalah ni? Like good product or whatsoever? Masalahnya kulit saya sensitive, tak tahan dengan produk yang efeknya kuat. Even dettol pun tak boleh. Sighhhh. Saya tensi, sangat tensi. Serius rasa tak ada confident nak keluar rumahhh. :((

p/s : suddenly rasa entry ni macam ruangan masalah dekat harian metro pulak. hahahahahha. :P

my two lil bros.

2010-06-24T13:46:00.003+08:00

conversation 10min lepas. after pick up my 2 lil bros from skss1.
ee : nana, tadi ee nangis kat skoloh.
ami : ami pung,na
me : bakpe plok? ade org buli ke?
ami : cikgu tunjuk video mama mengandung and beranok!
ee : takut!
me : so?
ee : lepas ni takmboh nakal doh.
ami : dokleh nano doh ke mama.
me : haha. suwigg. ♥

June quick updates.

2010-06-22T00:41:00.009+08:00

June quick updates..

meme's 21st birthday picnic party. (13 june)
kak gee(nyna's sis) wedding (18 june)
bett&crbp pyjama's party (19 june)
wafa's 20th birthday(21 june)
cr's date with dayla (early June)
CRBP's date @ Coco Jumbo

i love my girlfriends. ;)). that's the reason why it doesn't really matters to me, er the fact that i don't have the special one especially when they're around. we complete each other.
crbp, saranghae ;)

p/s : sejak genap 20tahun ni asyik tumbuh pimples baru. banyak.. aiseh. oh jerawat, bile anda,anda dan anda nak menghilangkan diri dari hidup saya? ;(

twitter

2010-06-15T23:36:00.002+08:00

jom tweet pulak.

http://twitter.com/iyllyana

p/s : Happy 21st, eh 12th Birthday to Nur Syamimi sayang ;)

oh prosecutor princess.

2010-06-13T12:08:00.003+08:00

prosecutor princess

gara-gara marathon drama ni 11pm-6am semalam
segan rasanya nak keluar rumah hari ni
mata bengkak macam orang baru gaduh dengan boyfriend.
tengok drama tengah malam, sorang-sorang macam ni lah
kebetulan pulak kena episode jiwang lagi sendu
berjam-jam berendam air mata
aisehh.

If Tomorrow Never Comes

2010-06-11T10:03:00.004+08:00

"If Tomorrow Never Comes"

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

This song is one of my fav songs ever. Such a sweet song, right? I like slow and romantic songs. Most people always tell me that those songs are the sleepy ones. haha. Sometimes I do enjoy fast songs, but most of the time, I do enjoy the slower ones. They make me feel calm and chill.

2 months passed so fast. Another month to go before going back to campus. Sigh. I should enjoy and spend every moment wisely. As this is the last time I'll ever have 3months holidays. Next year,I shall be having my practical at this time. Time do flies fast. No regrets, I miss everyone over there too. Just that everything here right now seems so right. hohoho. Okey, enough craps for Friday morning. Bye peeps ;)

p/s : People do blog when they are bored, isn't it?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

2010-06-11T00:46:00.006+08:00

20!

Yes, I am officially 20 years and 1 day old now. Alhamdulillah, He still give me another chance to still be here. TWENTYY already. Feel a lil bit weird, but redha with the new number, "2". I am no longer a teenager, yet to be an adult soon, next year perhaps. Thanks everyone who sent me sweet birthday wishes, through phone calls, sms, facebook, twitter, formspring, blogspot, etc. (my friendster and myspace account are currently not active. er, i have plans to delete them actually). You guys won't know how i appreciate and so thankful for receiving those wishes. Thanks a lot. Anyways, its the thought that counts, right? ;))

this was after i changed my attire

As for the celebration, actually i don't expect any event, at least not on the day itself as i still remember last year, i told them i was not that surprise as they did the party on the day itself as well. But, yes, they did it again. And i WAS surprised indeed. This time, my forever-babes CR&BP did it with the help from my parents, sibs and cousin. Iffat sayang, you can be a great actress dear. Siap menangis on the phone, semata-mata nak alihkan perhatian saya. Thanks Iffat, eventhough you were not there, you did participate and even with the live video calls and all, thanks a lot for still spending your time despite of you're having final exam on the very next day.

iffat, see that's you!

CR&BP babes (MEME, NED, ALIA, MCDY, AIMA, AZWA, TIHAH, TUN), thanks for the lovely pink cake! Love it love it love it! Thanks for the surprise. If only any of you guys can at least give me a hint, so that I can be prepared and dressed beautifully. Ni turun dengan seluar pendek kot! Tak aci korang semua lawa-lawa, pakai make-up, pakai pink lagi! Tapi dah nama pun surprise kan. Thanks everyone. Thanks MAMA, YAYA, KAY and ABG ZIZI too for ikut sama berkomplot. THANKS, THANKS AND THANKS.

I am so blessed for being surrounded by nice people like them. My wish for this year is ***. Maybe I should just keep it to myself. *wink2*. Haha. Allrightt, till then. Last but not least, HAPPY BIRTHDAY IYLLYANA!

**all the pictures, thanks to abang zizi and meme

currently listening to : Ronan Keating - If tomorrow never comes.

countdown.

2010-06-08T00:22:00.002+08:00

satu hari lagi.
aaa, rasa diri ini makin tua ;D

sudah pulang.

2010-05-28T01:00:00.002+08:00

oh kapas
vacation yang sangat enjoyy
bergelak-ketawa sampai rahang terasa lenguh
berjemur sampai tone masing-masing dah bertukar warna
kami happy :)

sangat penat tapi tak boleh tidur..
...

vacation.

2010-05-26T07:12:00.001+08:00

OFF TO A PRIVATE VACATION WITH CR & BP BABES
SEE YOU IN 2DAYS ;)

I'm not a girl, not yet a woman.

2010-05-26T02:12:00.002+08:00

Pinjam tajuk lagu Britney kejap for this post :D . Oh ya, esok CR&BP akan pergi bercuti. Dua hari satu malam. Dekat Terengganu sahaja :). Eventhough ada sedikit kesal kerana tak semua dapat join. Bila semua dah sambung belajar ni, belum pernah sekali pun semua sekali berkumpul. Universiti lain - lain, ada yang negara lain, ada yang cuti lain, macam - macam. When can we ever gather again, dengan semua ada, saya pun tak pasti bila. Rindunya pada yang lain-lain Dia saja yang tahu.

Berbalik kepada title post ni, Allah saja yang tahu betapa gembiranya hati saya bila parents kasi chance nak ikut diorang-diorang ni ke pulau. Sebenarnya saya tahu mama dengan papa berat hati sangat - sangat nak bagi permission. Almaklumlah, mana pernah diorang benarkan anak-anak ke mana-mana tanpa diorang. Maksud saya, untuk bercuti. Last year, CR & BP pun ada private vacation jugak. Tapi ke Merang sahaja, tak perlu naik bot atau feri, naik kereta-3o minit sudah sampai. Kes tu pun kena pujuk berhari hari.

Saya ni anak sulung, pengalaman pertama mama handle anak. So, kalau dikira, antara adik- beradik, mama paling strict atau tegas pada saya. Ingat lagi zaman sekolah, kawan-kawan lelaki ada yang suka telefon rumah kacau saya. Mamalah yang akan angkat telefon dan sound budak - budak tu. Takpun mama ada jugak buat spot check handphone. Pada saya, mama cakap jangan bercinta zaman sekolah, banyak buruk dari yang baik. Berbeza dengan kes Yaya,adik saya. mama lebih lenient dan tak pernah check handphone Yaya. Sebab Yaya tak pernah benarkan sesiapa sentuh handphonenya. Sentiasa berlock-code bagai. Walaupun sakit mata tengok Yaya tak berhenti ber-SMS dengan saya-pun-tak-tahu-siapa, Mama just biarkan saja. Cuba kalau saya masa sebesar Yaya buat macam tu, mesti kena rampas handphone dah. Hehe. Mungkin sebab dah terbiasa single, sampai sekarang saya tetap single walaupun sekarang Mama yang bising suruh cari boyfriend. Haha

Bab keluar pulak, kalau saya nak kemana-mana, zaman sekolah dulu, mesti dihantar dan dijemput, dua hari sebelum keluar dah kena mintak permission, diinterview dulu nak ke mana, dengan siapa, anak siapa. Mama kenal semua kawan-kawan saya. Kalau ada aktiviti sekolah, kalau perlu pergi luar Kuala Terengganu, mesti kena ada reason yang solid. Ingat lagi masa Tingkatan Satu, saya ke Kem Kecermelangan KRK di Sekayu. Mama dan Papa terpaksa benarkan saya pergi dan bermalam ke sana kerana kem tu dianjurkan oleh JPN Terengganu. Tak saya sangka, Mama dan Papa pergi ke sana sekali nak check keadaan saya di sana. Namun saya faham, mungkin sebab saya selalu sakit masa kecil dulu, selalu asthma dan pengsan. Selain itu, walaupun saya dapat straight A's dalam UPSR dan PMR, parents saya tak benarkan saya pohon pun ke sekolah berasrama. Tipulah kalau saya tak rasa cemburu langsung pada kawan- kawan lain yang pindah ke sekolah berasrama, tapi saya tak apalah, SMKSS pun dah cukup baik untuk saya. :)

Sekarang, saya dah 20 tahun. Nak keluar ke mana-mana tak perlu lagi minta permission 2 hari sebelum tapi inform tu mesti. Belajar di UIA, Mama dan Papa belikan saya kereta, tapi saya tak dibenarkan drive KT ke KL. Long distance bahaya, mereka kata. Saya tahu mereka risau akan keselamatan saya, sebab saya kan perempuan. Tapi kadang- kadang, saya harap mereka boleh percayakan saya lebih sikit. Saya bukan lagi Nana 10 tahun lepas yang sakit- sakit. Saya pun dah 20 tahun, insyaAllah dah boleh bezakan mana yang baik dan mana yang buruk. Saya tahu mereka sayang saya, dan saya bersyukur selama 20tahun saya hidup, walaupun kami orang sederhana, saya tak pernah hidup susah. Makan pakai sentiasa cukup. Saya tahu dan sedar semua tu. Cuma kadang-kadang ada terkilan kerana tak diberi peluang yang cukup untuk berdikari.

Apa-apa pun, permission untuk ke Kapas dah dapat. Walaupun nampak sangat Mama separuh rela je benarkan saya pergi, tapi tu tanda-tanda baik dah. Tak sabar nak bercuti dengan CR&BP esok. Barang semua dah siap dikemas. Doakan kami selamat sampai dan balik ye. Jumpa lagi dalam masa 2 hari :)

Little things that made me happy these days.

2010-05-23T20:32:00.008+08:00

credits to Dome.

When my two little brothers chose to ride with me rather than with my parents. Eventhough my car is smaller and their's were wayy comfortable than my car.
When we sing together in the car, loudly until people outside the car can hear our voices. For example, my two little bros really like Wali Band's song. Therefore, eventhough I don't really like the band, I mean I enjoy listening to their songs but I'm not their fan, I choose to download their songs and play them in the car to please them. Yes, i know I AM a good sis, right? :P
Their happy faces whenever I pick up them from the school. The faces that I can read as "yeay, we can get slurpee after this because it is Nana that pick us up".
How they eat whatever I cook. They can get so excited whenever I cook. Okay, I admit I'm not a good cook, as I don't really know how to cook. But, I can cook several simple and easy dishes such as spaghetti, chicken chop, fried rice, etc. My cookings are not great, but they're eatable.
When I go shopping for groceries. Normally,once a week, Bibik will write a list and my siblings and I will go to Giant to buy groceries. Sometimes, I feel like I am a mum, bringing 3 kids to buy household items but we really enjoy doing it every week. They'll help me pick up those items and I'll grant each of them an icecream before we get back home.
When I have the power to make a decision to them. Most of the time, my opinions do matters. Well, that's the power granted to bigg sis. hehe
My CR & BP babes are already here. Well, not all, but most of them. Therefore, my holidays are not that bored anymore. Moreover, we've already decided to go to a private vacation soon. Urgh, really cant wait. :))
Family gathering at nenek's house every Friday. Everyone will be there, chitchatting, laughing, crying together. I really admire mama and her siblings' strong ties. They really close to each other. I enjoy listening to their stories, especially the stories from their childhood. And normally we ended our Fridays with karaoke-ing at Ayah Su's house until mid night.
Listening to my sibling's stories whenever they get back from their school.
FACEBOOK. :D

We live in a small town here called Kuala Terengganu. Yes, we don't have cinema over here, or even Starbucks or Old Town to chill at. Not to forget, a huge shopping complex. None of them are available here. However, I really enjoy every moments I am here. Cool and fresh air, GOOD food, no traffic jam, beaches everywhere and being surrounded by cool people, I am really grateful. What that matters are, this place is my hometown, and people that I love are all here. Yes, I know I am easy to be pleased, right? :)

cuti & formspring

2010-05-20T01:31:00.005+08:00

special thanks to azizi, dome, heng efan and zahar harun.
cuti. try and error. ;p

and..
http://www.formspring.me/iyllyana
feel free to ask me anything. :)

results,

2010-04-21T11:56:00.005+08:00

the results came out yesterday,
alhamdulillah. i passed everything.
although frustrated with myself,that my gpa dropped 0.1 and my cgpa dropped too.
they're both still in between 3.3-3.5
however, i should be thankful anyways.
the subjects for last sem were all tough and new for us.
and i think most of us didnt perform that well
anyways, congrats to all who passed and successfully completed the second year first semester subjects.

and the results for this sem was quite surprising
the subject that i didnt do well during the exam turned out to be good and vice versa.
especially my constitutional 1 subject.
i dont really like history-kind-of subjects,
but i always get good results with these kinds of subject
i cant figure out why but maybe that's why Allah put me here,among the law students, i guess.

so, to :
dr noraini, dr shamrahayu, dr nasimah, dr baharuddin, dr hikhamtullah,
sir azlan, brother latif and meor,
thanks for giving me the good grades.
it was a pleasure to be one of your students.

so, aikol, iium, see u in another 2 months and a half.
i have to work harder next sem.
welcome back to iiu for those who are taking the short semester
and happy holidays to those who are still in their long breaks, like me.
:))

mind language.

2010-04-18T20:56:00.003+08:00

just ponder and wonder.
logically speaking, everyone does talk to themselves, right?
so, what language that they use?
as for me, i've tried to determine what language that i use when i talk to myself.
well, yes, i do talk to myself a lot. ey,wait, im not insane, okey.
basically, we talk to ourselves when we're thinking, right?
and i cant figure it out. the language.
how about u?

... too much free time.
that makes me keep thinking about all those crappy stuffs.
i have to stop thinking or i might have to see a psychologist. haha
dear cr n bp darlingss, pls come back asap.
i'm getting bored here.

tagged by iena and bie.

2010-04-18T18:23:00.002+08:00

10 fakta tentang saya:
1) nama penuh saya iyllyana. sahaja. bukan nur iyllyana, bukan juga ilyana, tidak nana iyllyana. nana tu nickname keluarga dari kecil. although ejaan iyllyana agak pelik dan pening, lagi susah untuk orang ingat, tapi saya sangat suka! that makes me feel that my name is unique and there is only one iyllyana in this whole wide world. :))
2) sangat suka membaca. bagi saya apa sahaja, mesti saya baca. mama cakap dari kecik suka beli buku. hehe
3) extra suka warna pink. fakta ni semua orang yang kenal saya tahu kot. :D
4) suka kek!
5) lahir pada 9 jun 1990 di kuala terengganu. terkenal di kalangan saudara-mara sebagai baby yang sangat suka menangis dan menyusahkan orang tapi comel(part ni rekaan iyllyana). haha.
6) tak pandai sangat memasak. tapi berazam nak belajar time cuti ni. hihi
8) sangat suka tengok cerita korea, dengar lagu korea dan baca news dekat allkpop. haha
9) a multi-tasking person. saya study sambil dengar lagu, kadang2 sambil menyanyi sekali. kalau tak, zzzzz la jawabnya.
10) tak ada boyfriend. tapi happy jer. sebab dia ada kawan2 dan besties yang gempak.

10 perkara menakutkan saya:
1) kilat dan petir. kalau tengah study, sanggup tutup buku dan tidur sebab tak nak dengar.
2) hilang org2 yg sy syg.
3) hantu dan segala makhluk halus. sanggup tak tengok cerita2 horror. lagi baik tak tengok dari teringat.
4) sakit dan mati.
5) repeat mana2 paper. tak sanggup extend sem!
6) ular.
7) jatuh cinta dengan orang yang salah.
8) drive sebelah motor/lori/ bus
9) hilang kawan.
10) Allah.

10 perkara yang selalu saya sebut
1) erm..
2) confirm!
3) oh mama! (ni kalau terkejut)
4) entah
5)
6)
7)

10 perkara yang amat bernilai
1) family tercinta.
2) cr & bp tersayang
3) sahabat - sahabat
4) mr. TAU saya.
5) hardisk saya.
6) bilik pink saya. especially kipas pink. haha
7) myself. mesti lah tak bole jual murah. penat mama papa besarkan saya. hehe
8) komputer saya. dah 4tahun and still counting. haha.
9) degree LLB saya. insyaAllah.
10) rambut kan mahkota wanita. haha

10“pertama kali” dalam hidup saya
1) dapat adik. masa umur 4 tahun. ingat lagi dulu tak suka yaya!
2) dapat kereta sendiri tahun lepas. sayanggg mr. TAU. hehe
3) drive tanpa "P". last 2 weeks. yeay, dah habis P. hehe
4) naik bas sekolah masa kem kecemerlangan sekolah. darjah 6 kot.
5) naik kenderaan awam masa dekat foundation di nilai. naik KTM masa umur 18, LRT dan bas masa umur 19.
6) dapat laptop sendiri. 16tahun.
7) dapat handphone sendiri. 11 tahun.
8) kena saman officially di uia. 2009, late registration.
9) kena saman sebab tak pakai seat belt. lokasi : kuala terengganu. masa tu baru 2-3 bulan dapat lesen. :D
10) debate inter-uni. 2009.

7 orang bertuah (JAWAB TAG NI BALIK!)
1) iffat far'ain
2) nur syamimi
3) bett
4) zetty
5) alia mardhiah
6) athirah ali
7) asna ashraff

im done!!!

2010-04-07T20:09:00.003+08:00

im DONE
done with my final exams.
done packing, clearing everything in my room at uni (8pm-3am)
done with semester 2 2009/2010
done with my second year first semester law degree

and..
bye-bye iiu
bye aikol
see you in 3months

btw, im already at home
woah, its so nice being home
without having to think anything about studies..
for 3 months.. [giggles]
haha, what a bad student i am

cant wait to see my besties soon
hm i dont really have any plan for this long break
i just want to enjoy myself, relax and yes, updating myself with korean stuffs ;p
and i want to learn how to cook [iA]

the most important thing is :
i dont want to gain weight as happened during my last year's 3months long break

btw,results will come out on the 20th
i hope everything's gonna be okay
i've done my best, and i just tawakkal for the rest

iiu's, aikolians,
happy holidays ya!
have a great one :)